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I have to write this in hopes you will read it. I am to afraid to say it to your face....I am a coward!!!!!!
Hasn't 3 years of pain taught you anything? WHY do you even talk to someone who so blatantly wants nothing but a casual relationship from you? Why can't you SEE that he only wants what he wants, and can turn on the charm when he feels like it, or be as cold as can be, when it suits HIM? WHY don't you have any pride? Remember the hurt you felt when he told you he really didn't want anything like a family with you? How can you EVER forgive him for that? HE DOESN"T LOVE YOU! No matter what HE says.....If he did he would WANT to spend the rest of HIS life with YOU!!!! Why don't you just tell him to F... Off? Be a stong woman that you are, and don't let him play with your emotions like that! Don't go to his house, don't call him, don't e-mail him...just don't! I hear it in your voice and I cringe and want to scream......Don't tell me about this "friendship" thing......That's an excuse. You have to tell him you don't need him and then follow through! Realize that you CAN be without him, he is not THAT special............... How many times do you need to be knocked down before you finally say ENOUGH!?