The One I Love

My husband fainted.
In the middle of the night, I was awakened by a thump. When I asked him if he was ok, he didn't respond. With heart beating way to fast, I ran to the bathroom, only to see him laying on the floor, eyes open, staring at nothing. I tried to call to him, but there was no response. There he was, the person I love above all, just laying there. All my CPR trainig was instantly lost. I didn't know what to do. I stood there, looking at him KNOWING I should DO SOMETHING, but nothing came to mind. Finally, I saw a washcloth at the sinks edge, grabbed it, and put it to his head. That brought him around! Finally! I bet the whole thing didn't take more than a few seconds, but to me, it seemed forever. Up until this time, I always thought of him as my rock, my constant someone to lean on, my best friend and lover, and THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. I still think of him in those terms, but I somehow have a whole new appreciation for US and my life with him. When it all happened, I was to stunned to think, but now, after a week of constant thinking about it, I have come to some conclusions. The number one thing I will NEVER do again is take him for granted. I swear it. I will try to put him first in my life, like it used to be, before kids, work and just everyday life happened. I will kiss him good bye, like I used to, every morning, and tell his sleeping face I love him. I will be grateful for every moment I get to spend with this amazing human being that I have the privilege of loving. I have always loved him, but it seems to me I somehow love him even more now. Just the thought of something happening to him, makes me sick to my stomach. I look at him and think how special he is and wonder how I ever got so lucky! I love his salt and pepper hair, his beautiful blue eyes, his special walk, and his smile. But mostly I am in awe of what a truly remarkable person he is. Not once during our time together, did I feel less than loved by him. That's how it is when one has a great husband. I hope we have lots of years together ahead of us, because I KNOW I don't want to spend them without him.